i would wanna ride a pretty white horse and live in a cottage.
haha, i thought i knew my heart.
just spent 45min of this precious time writing a letter that was not meant to be posted. just did the very thing that crumbled me and crushed my day. i can't believe this is happening again and this was done to me like this again. sometimes in life backstabbing happens. we are told to just accept it. and avoid them? yea. easier said than done. i'm just truly glad i have friends i can spend a day with, thinking about nothing related to that. maybe i was so afraid that such would happen again that i started backstabbing too. though knowing it's not right. despite having control, doing it each time made me feel smaller. now that it has happened to me again, worse still by someone so close i can't just eliminate from my soul or body by not thinking about it, i feel even dirtier. i can't just not think about it. i just can't believe this is happening again.
the boy who cried wolf? yes he probably had more to it in his story too. but it was never told.
half-truths, whole-truths. some truths hurt. but it's definitely way better than deceptions. because truths hurt one party, and sometimes it might just trigger good change. deceptions on the other hand, hurt two parties when the truth is revealed. and nothing. will. be. able. to. mend. the. trust. that. was. forged. again. time and again, i choose to believe, but human race is indeed fragile, weak, and nothing. nada.
ohbytheway, half-truths are considered deceptions/lies too.
people try to depend on others-trust- so that they know that they are not alone. that they have a certain something that would build them and their ego up, that they have something to fall back on, but no. when they make a mistake, they find out that the constructed object to their faith, is nothing. is not there anymore. or maybe. not there to begin with.
like my brother have said, trust no one. really?
who is there like you, Lord, clothe in strength and beauty. marvelous, so wonderful, indeed. (what's the song title, again?)
to recognise yet compromise to differences is family. but family ought to be chosen.
because trust don't come by saying. trust come by earning. and sometimes, it is just too fragile too.
omgosh this is damn sad. that is why you never add your bosses. and if you do, please remember you did! S:
i really hope i get this job. i'm going for a group interview! group S: i don't know how it's gonna be like. i've never been to an interview, let alone know how to answer cliche but important questions like how do you think you can benefit our company. i'm having jitters in my tummy and the excitement is swallowing me whole. it's not a fantastic job, but i'd really like to get started with a stable job soon! need money soon!
swimming wise, i'm happy. i need to complete my lesson plan and i can start getting paid! 4jobs won't even be enough if i'm not getting paid properly! either a pay-raise or a good-paying job pweety please?
i can't believe how much of this block of wall i've built up again. maybe i'm just not ready no matter how happy i think i would be. though i'd love to step out, it's not enough until i'm ready.
omgosh this is damn sad. that is why you never add your bosses. and if you do, please remember you did! S:
i really hope i get this job. i'm going for a group interview! group S: i don't know how it's gonna be like. i've never been to an interview, let alone know how to answer cliche but important questions like how do you think you can benefit our company. i'm having jitters in my tummy and the excitement is swallowing me whole. it's not a fantastic job, but i'd really like to get started with a stable job soon! need money soon!
swimming wise, i'm happy. i need to complete my lesson plan and i can start getting paid! 4jobs won't even be enough if i'm not getting paid properly! either a pay-raise or a good-paying job pweety please?
i can't believe how much of this block of wall i've built up again. maybe i'm just not ready no matter how happy i think i would be. though i'd love to step out, it's not enough until i'm ready.
my life is back.
SINGAPORE!
i miss secondary school where we'll all form two lines in our class, we sing we cheer we laugh we do stupid and crazy things.
i miss primary school when we'll laugh and tease the vivian girl with the tamil song and run the rhyme of "vivian la vivian la vivian no more"
i miss holding hands in primary school on national day singing all those familiar songs.
i miss talent conquests in primary schools where we'll laugh at people who suck and feel a little better inside. not. (i was one of them performing in one year X: )
i miss getting all excited on national days where we get to wear anything we want and we'll try to be uniformed, wearing reds and whites.
i suddenly also miss our crescent food stall.
i miss veggie stall most. their fried egg on noodles is second to none!
i love saving money at ck rice stall where i can get 50c rice. "chicken rice without chicken" cos the rice is already flavoured. i used to get 2 plates and survived.
i miss gathering at our parade square and looking over at the sea of red.
what not to miss.
i miss singapore, where family and friends are. even though everyone moved on, caught up with time, ran their race, history is the same.
my little red dot, where i belong. :D
i hate people thinking we're a part of china
we don't speak like this
we're on the other part!
people often are surprised at how well we speak; of course, we are not from china, our main language is ENGLISH.
you ignorant people.
update:
haha i don't even know where i left off.
well, maybe four jobs sounds crazy, but people need to know that i'm not paid for one of them, the others aren't paying well either.
money kept running like water and i don't even remember where i've spent them on. i try to thrift and be careful with what i spend on, but it just doesn't stop. but one thing i'm thankful of, i have two units this sem, leaving me with more time to get money :D i also have a sister who understands. i've brushed shoulders with bratty ones who intentionally rip their parents of their inheritance. oh thank God.
it's four weeks into school now. that was quick! hoping to get HDs wouldn't help till i do something about it. and to think at this point in time i chose to skip school for a week to work for the research trial! tho i'm satisfied. :D skipping school keeps me worrying each day and i know i'm supposed to stop all these panic attacks and just get to work already. as much as i'm worrying, i'm doing nothing about it. familiar? it's back to crescent days. anyway, work was simply fulfilling. fun was also an understatement. :p to top it off, there is actually cute guys! WAHAHA. eye candies anyone?
tennis with elaine at uni with her friend (i totally suck at names) absolutely rocks! they were patient with me and i'm improving by leaps and bounces! says elaine though. but glad still. at least i wasn't impeding them from having a great time right? i'm just as competitive elaine! but it's awesome cos that means we'll make the best of our 1-2 hours at the court. again elaine? :D and yeah her blog is hilarious! her comments to her pictures (that records her daily happenings) makes my tummy cry.
sister turns 18! it's like finally for her and i'm seeing less of her at home! ): go figure.
no clubs though. just clarifying.
i will clean up the room one day. i feel so bad. so many letters and stuff to post but they keep lying on the table and i keep forgetting to bring them out. bugger.
i'm gonna swim with cheyenne and wanling today!
iphone will help me keep a daily update with pictures. so iphone purchase is essential. qwerty keypad is way easier for me, i'm kinda determined. WHAT AM I WAITING FOR! i don't actually know. just wanted to be certainly certain.
waiting for sister's curcakes, can't wait!
ciao~
i love my italian boss, she is love.
Crescent Girls' School
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| Motto | Courtesy, Generosity, Sincerity |
|---|---|
| Established | 1956 |
| Type | Autonomous Secondary, Single Session |
| Principal | Mrs Eugenia Lim |
| MOE Code | 3005 |
| Colours | Lemon Yellow, Peacock Blue |
| Locale | 357 Tanglin Road, Singapore |
| Enrollment | Approx. 2000 |
| Website | Link |
| Ministry of Education | |
 Republic of Singapore | |
Crescent Girls' School (CGS, Crescent) is an autonomous girls' school in Singapore and bears no affiliation to any other school. Students who applied for admission to Crescent in 2006 must obtain at least a PSLE score of estimated 245 to qualify. The cut-off point for each year is not fixed, and is dependent on demand and supply of positions in the school for that particular year's intake.
Crescent is recognised as one of the top educational institutions in Singapore, offering value-added programmes catering to the holistic development of its students. CGS is also one of the 13 secondary schools awarded with the School Excellence Award, the highest and most prestigious award in the MOE Masterplan of Awards. It serves as a mark of distinction for schools that have achieved overall systemic excellence in both academic and non-academic outcomes. Also noteworthy is Crescent's Band 1 status, having consistently produced average L1R5 scores of less than 10 in the GCE 'O' Level (100% of its students qualified for JC/Pre-U). It is also well-known for its maintained excellence in co-curricular activities, particularly the performing arts and uniformed groups. Crescent's streak of commendable achievements include the Outstanding Character Development Award, all 5 Best Practice Awards, Singapore Quality Class Award, Public Service Award for Organisational Excellence and many more (see Recent Achievements).
Crescent is also one of the few FutureSchools@Singapore conferred by MOE and IDA as a leading school with excellent teaching and learning practices that leverage on technology. Another commendable achievement that has secured Crescent's position on the global map and as a leading instituiton would be being declared by Bill Gates at the 2007 Global Leaders Forum (January 31, 2007) as mentor school for schools of the future around the world.[1] Crescent now mentors innovative schools in 12 countries under the Worldwide Microsoft Innovative Schools Programme.
wahhh making crescent sound really good on wiki!
randoms.
knowing so well we're not on talking terms you should just shut up cos you don't really know what sensitivity is. don't mention my name. it's OUR noodles. damn stupid.
wah. claiming to be the good guy when you've screwed up damn it! i wanted to get the KC and you went nah don't really want it but if you want it get it lor. oh so you claimed WE got it cos she likes it when it was me who mentioned that to you kindly!?!?!? f you lah. piss me off the more i think about it already. i really hope you'll wisen up because i'm getting blamed for a lot of things that you clearly have no intelligence and sensitivity to deal with. wtf.
finding you more and more hypocritical by the minute. claiming for the things you didn't do. 算了吧.
honto ni irritating desu!
leave my love alone :/
how how how could i even have forgotten.
finally it's comes a time when it's the end of cell(s)
i thought it'd be easier for me to make a decision now. but i was wrong! am i in for a challenge/discipline course/to listen to God's word? there. the answer is actually there. but am i refusing to listen and follow like all the other times i screwed up cos i chose not to listen and follow?. there. anwser's there!
school will be starting in a matter of months/weeks. and i'd really like an opportunity for a trip down south/up north/to melbourne for a change. have always been pining for the poeple in singapore but doing nothing about it cos i'd feel so hypocritical when i keep telling them i miss them but can do nothing to make them feel the sincerity. or that i feel sick of me feeling like a piece of crap when i think of how i miss people who might have forgotten about me so i choose to 'forget' that i'm actually missing people and that our lives have changed and that we have nothing in common to construct a decent conversation and that i'm in 'boring' Perth and can talk about nothing much but trees and animals. esp when i'm a bum now. nothing. nada. monehh inz pockets nowxxzzz! :/
being online or appear offline. comment.
fan-surf or not to. when i do. i normally do for the whole day! X: and i'd end up feeling bad cos i've wasted my time not doing anything 'productive'. well achievement no 1: abstained from fan-surfing for months. only did mrleejunki's 3weeks ago to update my background <3! breakfast at tiffany's seems like such an oldie and i wanted to turn it off the minute i turned it on. but. wow. i was blown away by how she did her daily hair. damn. i want her hair-making hands. achievement no 2: haven't watched a movie/drama in ages! (esp GG, tho i'm missing thou.)
driving. is a whole new adult topic man. seriously. i used to wonder how adults can get so stingy. well. petrol and money is the root of all stinginess! ): i wanna bring convenience and comfort to friends and definitely family(-> those i'm living with cos according to dear wanling, living together is like family already! still struggling to accept mrC as one tho.) i really pray the clutch stays intact till i get a new car or go for servicing. the brakes keep working for me, the roads remain non-slippery for me, the petrol remain affordable for me and my phone remains in working conditions! drive safe, look straight!
please don't get angry anymore, this is my POV, tell me yours. i wanna know.
yeahh maybe i was being very harsh in my tone again. but i didn't even talked much and never even intended to scold you the minute you stepped in. everytime i could be fuming mad with you for letting me wait for you and thinking of the probability of being forgotten and hence being held up, but one look upon meeting you and seeing your innocent face. i. can't even/don't even wanna bother scolding you. i know you've heard me umpteen times that you should have looked at your phone and answer when we call. (most of the times you could reach me anyway tho a number of times you couldn't)-> one knew from one look at your face you were sorry. (didn't mean anything would be changed, just that you were sorry) but i didn't dare to say much. thought he'd started and you've approved cos you started discussing i could probably let you know too that since i wasn't the only one saying, i wasn't being highly cynical and maybe, just a slight maybe, that you might be more understanding when i get impatient sometimes.
not really indicating that i am totally right and you shouldn't be mad, just hoping that you'd see that it's no one's fault to begin with. (cos i asked mrC a couple of minutes upon arrivin if he'd told you what time he's arriving and he said you should know. so i wasn't expecting much. like wth he didn't inform you.) just felt that it is so wrong we've been on cold war so many times and this time i REALLY TRIED TO BE QUIET. i really can't take it when you get angry with me so many times especially if it's minor issues. or that you claimed that i've blown my top at you many times when i felt it from you just the same.
can't bitch about mrC. damn. but shit i wish you could be a bit wiser and more sensitive. getting in the way when i wanna do nice stuff for people and i'd end up feeling so pent up inside that i'd ruin the recipes and decided to not do anything in the end. damn.
quick give me a job already! airport, hungryjacks, kumon, swimming complex, burswood.
exams make people sad. please give me power to good delicious food to make them happy.
it's really hard to please so many people. maybe i should just focus on pleasing two first. don't go soft and learn to say NO to people today. two important people up next.
just for exams you both.
<3
sheety feelingxzx.
now on, family. onz onz onz-
yayy (:
i love my josephella team: weiping (princess), kimberly(narrator), yvonne (servant), janet (props in-charge), sam (my other evil brother), da yong (josephella), max (fairy god-father), kevin (papa), michael (narrator).
BTW, WE ARE "W" for weiping's group and double victory! do the victory cheer-
"no fear, weiping is here! no fear, God is here!"
and oh, i got to play bball and badminton and am not bad actually! all these times i have been trying so hard by my own strength, trying to be good, be excellent in fact, pointless. i got to fulfill my heart's desire. finally! my rock-hard heart has also been smashed. yes, it is true! i have always secretly dreamt to be a bball player, a badminton player, a swimmer, and now i'm given the chance to train and play without being laughed at. and really really enjoy it.
i've also met weiping aka my plane partner! apparently we met on the plane via tiger airlines the last time i flew to Perth. she was just sitting beside me and i was wondering who thisfunnycute girl was, she slept the whole journey! also, she remembered either my sis or i commented that the air-stewardess has pimply-face. and the other of us said, "so mean!" no prize for guessing. and guess what again! she still does sleep just as much! haha. so adorable~!
and thank you kimberly for sharing your comfy sleepingbag/blanket! awesome warmth~.
i'm gonna claim swimming today, tomorrow, and in the future.
that aside,
millipedes are the gross. they are the sick. they are the bumbum! they are so disgusting weiping had to piggyback me to the dining area. not enough! someone had to tell us a "myth" (cos it actually happened tho she intended it to be a joke) about them, both kimberly and i screamed and i cried (not tear man, i cried S:) it's stupid, i know. and i never expectly myself to cry anyway but guess what, if you can only see the amount of millipedes there was that night! oh. crap. it was. i dropped my sweater on the ground, picked it up, flung it, out flew a big fat millipede. still, not enough! they don't go away from you, and when you kick them away, they flip and wriggle on the ground till they are on the right side and slowly crawl towards the light/heat source again. S:
okay, on the much brighter side,
more more more bball with mr pinnochio cos he taught me to do the fling/toss the ball up from just beside under the net and hit the box and goal! haha. i did that 3 times so yeah! not taiko! nothing of me! phil 4:13! :DD
more more more badminton with kimberly and others too! fun :DD
i will miss them. i will surely miss you guys, cos i already am.
1 Timothy 1:6-7
i love my josephella team: weiping (princess), kimberly(narrator), yvonne (servant), janet (props in-charge), sam (my other evil brother), da yong (josephella), max (fairy god-father), kevin (papa), michael (narrator).
BTW, WE ARE "W" for weiping's group and double victory! do the victory cheer-
"no fear, weiping is here! no fear, God is here!"
and oh, i got to play bball and badminton and am not bad actually! all these times i have been trying so hard by my own strength, trying to be good, be excellent in fact, pointless. i got to fulfill my heart's desire. finally! my rock-hard heart has also been smashed. yes, it is true! i have always secretly dreamt to be a bball player, a badminton player, a swimmer, and now i'm given the chance to train and play without being laughed at. and really really enjoy it.
i've also met weiping aka my plane partner! apparently we met on the plane via tiger airlines the last time i flew to Perth. she was just sitting beside me and i was wondering who this
and thank you kimberly for sharing your comfy sleepingbag/blanket! awesome warmth~.
i'm gonna claim swimming today, tomorrow, and in the future.
that aside,
millipedes are the gross. they are the sick. they are the bumbum! they are so disgusting weiping had to piggyback me to the dining area. not enough! someone had to tell us a "myth" (cos it actually happened tho she intended it to be a joke) about them, both kimberly and i screamed and i cried (not tear man, i cried S:) it's stupid, i know. and i never expectly myself to cry anyway but guess what, if you can only see the amount of millipedes there was that night! oh. crap. it was. i dropped my sweater on the ground, picked it up, flung it, out flew a big fat millipede. still, not enough! they don't go away from you, and when you kick them away, they flip and wriggle on the ground till they are on the right side and slowly crawl towards the light/heat source again. S:
okay, on the much brighter side,
more more more bball with mr pinnochio cos he taught me to do the fling/toss the ball up from just beside under the net and hit the box and goal! haha. i did that 3 times so yeah! not taiko! nothing of me! phil 4:13! :DD
more more more badminton with kimberly and others too! fun :DD
i will miss them. i will surely miss you guys, cos i already am.
1 Timothy 1:6-7
7For God did not give us a spirit of timidity (of cowardice, of craven and cringing and fawning fear), but [He has given us a spirit] of [dynamis] power and of love and of sound mind.
nonetheless it was well-spent because....
first, i opened the door to a very welcoming cool breeze and suspected that it was gonna rain from the dark looming clouds too (true enough.) i went ahead to the bus stop anticipating that the bus wouldn't wait for me if i'd taken the shower i really wanted to take.
i was on my way to victoria park! (: to shop for groceries cos we ran out of milk, eggs, bread, veg, and what-have-yous. haha. wanted to ask sanjana along but decided against it cos it was so last-minute. LUCKILY. :D (you'll understand later)
so when i got there 15min later, i was kinda puzzled as to why most shops aren't open ley. (seee!) so i took like a 45min walk around the area cos no point shopping for stuff anymore~ lalala. and there, i found 3JAPANESE RESTAURANTS! すごい! took a couple of pictures and walked around somemore till i decided to do something more than enjoying being by myself and taking pictures.
and yes! after comtemplating for a good 10minutes or so, BASKIN ROBINS 31FLAVOURS :D yeah. went for an icecream in the chilly drizzle. very very enjoyable. in my own world of glee, i went over to the bus stop and ate to my hearts content while waiting for the bus that's due in half an hour. 2scoops and it lasted me half an hour?! hahaha. you must be kidding cos in a scorching weather it would have melted. nonetheless, as cars passed, people kept staring at my icecream so i ate it as if i was totally enjoying it (i really did! but just for the fun i displayed my enjoyment when i don't normally do so) yummmmm. :D
and with a nap in this weather, oooooh. the life i'm enjoying. haha. making me feel more guilty that i'm a jobless and school-less person at the moment. neh.
heh
"He held up the envelope in which Mrs. Weasley's letter had come, and Harry had to fight down a laugh. Every bit of it was covered in stamps except for a square inch on the front, into which Mrs. Weasley had squeezed the Dursleys' address in minute writing."
oh yes, in addition to the wonderful things i'm enjoying now, I SWAM IN COTTLESLOE YESTERDAY! swimming in the sea is soooo different, i swear! gosh, it's a tad more tiring but the feeling is SPLENDID. though the waves can be really scary, especially big ones (nothing compared to tsunami- but no, not gonna try experiencing it) woohoo~ ducking under the waves or being swept away by some not so major ones make me feel so puny compared to the waves yet at the same time oh so carefree to just wander under/above the currents. COOLSOME. this is one experience i wouldn't regret trying. and of course, wavebreakers in singapore aka east coast park- nothing compared to those here! good for
so... this is my proper entry in such a long time.
till the next, じゃあね! ♥
-timmytamtams- a box to top off a wonderful birthday.
HAHA!
but maybe that's what life is like!
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i am truly grateful.
"i really enjoy my work and i take pride in it. if you could just commit a little, it'll make me happy"
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ganbarre on AC112!! :DDD
omg. why has my left eye been twitching CONSTANTLY the whole day!?!?!?
shinjide
yayyyyy
and last but not least!
i got myself a first-aid kit to put in my future car AND A FACE LAERDAL POCKET MASK so i won't give my first to a stranger (
YIXIN ISABEL TEO, senior first-aider ((:
yooohooo~!
i can study (:
Here is the analysis:
- You are a very serious person. You tend to be quiet and well behaved, and you don't have a great deal of self-confidence. You prefer to be alone rather than with friends and that could make you a little less interesting to certain types of guys. You are very attractive in an individual kind of way, and this means it can take people a little while to get to like you.
- You really care about other people's feelings and are quite serious about the issues that affect your life. You are sincere, and your concern for the well-being of others makes many people want to be your friend.
- You strictly follow rules, and you expect other people to be the same as well. People can get tired of you easily, as you can make them feel a little guilty about themselves. You always make decisions on your own, and can be dismissive of other people's advice. You like to be the leader in groups, but can forget to be concerned about the people you are with.
- Guys see you as being a thinker and a careful person. They will be really attracted to this quality in you, but you need to learn to speak your mind, otherwise people will find you too shy and quiet. Learn to relax and lighten up--it's okay to have fun sometimes. When you learn to develop your fun-loving side, guys are going to flock to your side.
- Your boyfriend thinks that you are a real doll but this is not a totally positive thing. Sometimes you can be a bit too sweet, and come across as being helpless. If you're like this too frequently, your boyfriend and other people are likely to get tired of you having to rely on them all the time.
Here is the analysis:
You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.Here is the analysis:
Kind and Gentle
Your kindness is your charm - you are also gentle and sweet. Everybody likes to be around people with your personality. Like a psychologist, people like to talk to you to discuss their problems because you are proper and discrete, as well as confident. You look mature and people respect you. People with this kind of character are few and far between.You value your friendships: 50%
You value your friendships quite a lot but you don't like to show your feelings to others. You would rather keep your feelings to yourself than share them with your friends. You might get a pleasant surprise if you are more open about caring for people - they will probably let you know that you're special to them, too.well, even if you don't regard me as someone deemed fit for respect, (thanks very much, don't need to deny, i've been maintaining a facade anyway.) you treated her as your friend, bitch. ONLY and ONLY IF something is helpful to you or you can use it to impress other people, you'll be sweet, nice and ever-loving/helpful/generous. OMG you're such an ugly bitch. piss me off that people are always being so helpful to you and sympathetic to you when all they're looking at is a piece of fake shit.
i had thought you grew a bit in maturity. nah. i'm totally wrong. you selfish shit. go eat yourself whole before asking me for help ever. i don't want to help you ever tho i'll always feel obliged to. sickening shitty sickass.
i stooped to your level and you think you can just step over me like that?! YOU'RE SO WRONG.
yay. sleepover at angie's yesterday! thank God i can release my poo once and for all!! lol.
okay that wasn't the main point. :PP we did spring clean to the dirty old house! now it's more of like a decent old house. if anyone has more ideas on how to clean up the toilet bowl that has been left unclean for a long period of time ._. please let me know!!! :DD thankkewww!
wii with good company is always so enjoyable. but i suck at math mental calc now. :X haiyo so rusty alr. used to top any mental calcs in class but now. need revision alr! haha.
working at the kebab stall now but lookin for a lab job so i can have something more related and helpful to my course of study. :D
hope i'd find one better one soon! then i'll be free from kebab :X untold secrets :S
wanling and sis seems to be settling down fine now. and i'm glad too! :D thunder is like good friends with us now seriously. :P he is sooooo adorable :D
So the Lord brought about a great victory
1 chronicles 11:14
how can you expect me to trust you when you've Destroyed the trust i had in you.
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